Saturday, January 1, 2011

我们做回朋友吧,永远在一起。

我们做回朋友吧,永远在一起。

你说:“我们做回朋友吧”
那么,请问:我可不可以继续和你分享我的快乐?
我可不可以借你的肩膀流泪?我还可以每天和你通电话吗?
我想见你的时候,是不是不需要任何的借口?我寂寞的时候,你还会陪我散步吗?
我穿得漂漂亮亮去见你的时候?你会称赞我吗?我想搂着你的时候,你会拥抱我吗?
我可以知道你跟谁来往吗?他是什么人?你有多喜欢他?
我可不可分担你的烦恼?我可不可以帮你做事?我可不可以向你撒娇?
如果,今天我很想的话,我可以睡在你旁边吗?
你生日的那天,可以跟我一起过吗?
我们是不是永不说再见。

我要跟你做这种朋友。
如果不可以的话,我们便不要做朋友好了。
不纠缠不证明我不爱。只是不纠缠,是我能够为我们曾经的爱,
能为你做的最后一件事一段以为会天长地久的爱情走到了落幕的时候。
一个以为会执他之手,与他偕老的爱人走到了分手的时候。
我们该如何面对。
该如何给这段感情一个交代,该如何给爱过的,也正爱着的那个人一个结局?

解决无非是两种
纠缠与不纠缠
是的,我理解,我清楚,我明白
眼睁睁的看着全心全意付出的感情
那个爱着的人离开
是多么残忍,是多么绝望的事
可是残忍和绝望不是纠缠对方的理由
是的,我理解
纠缠是想挽回对方的心
留住对方的情
希望重新开始
将感情继续下去,
给彼此一个新的机会~
给爱一个机会去厮守~

可是,分手的时候,越是纠缠不休,越会让自己伤的更加体无完肤。
伤害的不止是自己的心和身。
还会让对方,面对你的纠缠说出更绝情的话,甚至做出更绝情的事。
纠缠也践踏了自己的尊严。
你越是不死心,不放弃,越是挽留,越是纠缠,
只会让对方看轻你,让她走的更快,更远。
这样就把自己从绝望推入了万劫不复的地狱。
如果她真的要分手,那就让她走吧,干净利落的走,笑着让他走。
即使心里已经哭成了海,也不要去纠缠,挽留。
大方的让她走。
也许,某天,她还会想起你,还会想起你们的旧情,记起你的好。

我深信,她应该很了解我对她的感情,能够体会出,我对她付出的是真心
既然,她不肯留下,那我何必纠缠,那就放她走,给她自由。
可是,我不纠缠不等于我不想她,不等于,我没有爱过她。
我思念她的心,依然折磨我在日日夜夜。
往往别人不经意的一句话,就能让我想起她。
走在寒冷的街上,再也没有她温暖的手握住我冰冷的手。
那些孤寂的夜里,再也不会有她温暖的拥抱温暖我。

每个失眠的夜,再也没有她的句句关心,字字问候。
甚至电话也一声不响,陪着我沉默。曾经为了她一个电话而欢喜不已。
她不在,时间却不会停止不前
如果时间可以停止,我希望时间停在我们最相爱的那段日子
她不在,我的生活还要继续,一如已往,心底的伤, 欲盖弥彰,
自己的伤,自己解决,自己的心情,自己整理,自己的疼痛,自己埋葬
但, 不会找她
我能做的就是咬着牙自己对自己说,坚持下去。
卷缩在角落,等待着伤口平复,
我们都是凡尘男女,挣不出纠缠的情网,逃不过爱与被爱的旋涡
心碎神伤后,是漫无止境的寂寞
幸福的感觉也许只能刹那,刹那过后,是一个人的落寞
上帝让我在错误的时间遇上了你
我,哭了
它让我在正确的时间离开了你
你,会哭吗?

好想你能知道,不纠缠,不证明我不爱你,不纠缠,不证明我不想你,不纠缠,不证明我没伤
只是不纠缠,是我能够为我们曾经的爱,
能为你做的最后一件事。

Monday, November 15, 2010

Sunday, November 14, 2010

29th - Day of suffer !

The day of suffer !! doing assignment at school overnight.... some more the wound on my lips getting really pain !! medicine left at home....get a pain killer pill from my fren Luke (Korean). But since that pain killer not function at all.... cant continue my work coz the pain conquer my mind !! work end till 6am in the early morning....cant wait to go home and put medicine...called a cab to take me home instate of waiting the 8am bus. Today you heading bac to PJ... im worry about you every time you take bus !! But im so happy that u msg me that u reach home and save.. fuh ! wake up late in the evening....planning to hav dinner at school and finish up the assignment. Saw you online and skype with you....u asked me y i treat you so good and not hate you. The first answer in my heart is how can i hate a person that i loved the most ? i love you coz i need you, i need you coz i love you ! i didt request for any reward !! i just wanna to stay beside you !! but you just leave me when im in a really bad situation.... do you know... i do miss you when im here....i do wanna hug you and kiss you when im here....i dont wan both of us cry infront of the skype...do you think i can live without you ?? i cant....deep in my heart told me this...but u leave me without giving me a chance....i even cant touch you...hug you....kiss you.... it just like you disappear from my heart..!! at least you still got someone to hug you and kiss you there....but here...only tears kiss my lips....hiding under the blanket....hugging the book u wrote to me....once times past....all the contents in the books is a lie to me....all the promise is just a dream ..... where r u ?? my love.....

Saturday, November 13, 2010

28th - Great Dinner !

2day i went ice skating again !! 3rd time during this semester !! wohoo !! just wanna master my skating skill before i go bac....so that i can bring u go Sunway piramid and skate !! i wish i got the chance....fall down and get hurt alot this few week !! but i say to my self so wat !! LOVE is always the grestest things ever !! you r the only one can make me cry like this....!! i love you more than anything....it become a factor that i can overcome everything !! thank you Wong Pui San ! Going to centre after ice skating, our dinner 2day is chinese dumpling and the chef is from beijing the origin of dumpling !! woohoo ! the most difficult part is chopping the meat in to minced meat.....it take 4 people to do that by change shift haha. It was so delicious !!

The gang of ice skating !!


The dumpling come with the chili soy source is awesome ! Serve with vege with oyster source !

The one from the left is the chef of the day from Beijing !



Here the delicious dumpling !!

Friday, November 12, 2010

27th - Sky full of star !

其实,我不是不喜欢管你。
而是随着你的害怕而改变。
你常常跟我说
你害怕被关起来的感觉,
所以你都喜欢睡在外面而我睡里面。
你不喜欢窒息的感觉,所以都不喜欢被被盖全身。
慢慢的我也为你改变了。
你都喜欢睡在我的手上睡觉。
其实睡觉不能动很辛苦,
可是看到你那可爱的睡相我都不忍心拿开我的手。
很多时候,我就这样睡到天亮。
虽然我睡得不好,可是早上看到你幸福的样子我就很开心!
手酸痛也不要紧了!
today i wake up at 4.40 and call you....just donno y....abit worry every time u take bus back to ipoh.... that one of the reason i so wanted to get a car to KL and drive. The second reason is can fetch you here and there....then u can drive my car without taking taxi....coz u always get angry becoz of the taxi driver... XD

U were home and save.....yeah ! i went ice skating again today....i wanted to master it before i went bac malaysia. Coz before this, i promise you to teach you how to skate...but now im wondering do i have the chances ?? Nvm, you happy i happy. Somemore its benefit myself wad....i know how to skate.... another things is ....MY LIPS IS FUCKING PAIN !! OMG !! cant eat alot...coz so pain....drink water also pain.... pain the whole day di....OMG suffer alot !! Today i ate french cuisine in IMI, not bad ! huhu! but i cant eat alot ! coz of my wound ! KNS !! after dinner keep on working on my event proposal...! went bac home and rest almost 10 something....while im walking to the bus stop....looking at the sky !! WAO !! lots of star !! so nice !! clear and bright sky !! but didt saw you moon...its hiding from me T.T !!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

26th - I just care about you !

如果沒有遇見你,
我將會是在哪裏?
日子過得怎麼樣,
人生是否要珍惜?
也許認識某一人,
過著平凡的日子.
不知道會不會,
也有愛情甜如蜜?

任時光匆匆流去,
我只在乎你.
心甘情願感染你的氣息.
人生幾何能夠得到知己?
失去生命的力量也不可惜.
所以我求求你,
別讓我離開你.
除了你,我不能感到,
一絲絲情意.

如果有那麼一天,
你說即將要離去.
我會迷失我自己,
走入無邊人海裏.
不要什麼諾言,
只要天天在一起.
我不能只依靠,
片片回憶活下去.



Wednesday, November 10, 2010

25th - 你知道吗??

你常常问我我今天有什么不同
我回答你都一样咯
可是你懂不懂你每天在我心里都是那么的漂亮。
我不是不喜欢你喂我吃东西
而是我喜欢你喂我吃甜甜的东西。
我不是不喜欢看你
而是我喜欢在夜里静静的看你睡觉。在旁看着你可爱的睡相听听你呼吸的声音。