14th - Wish you happy and lovely forever !!

Happy Halloween bear bear ! 2day i experienced day light saving !! ^^ 2 times 2am in my life ! XD
Wake up early morning and ready for the Lucerne marathon ! It was so tiring day ...keep holding the fruit platter for the runner...it is so happy to serve people again. It has been so long i never do this type of job since i left my Buddhist society. All of us pick a flag of country and wave at the venue...XD !! I donno wat is the country the flag i pick...XD ! Saw ur pictures in ling san birthday party ! you were so pretty..and gorgeous. I saw a picture you were kissing him and holding his hand...so swt and lovely. So happy that you were having a wonderful life there....stay happy forever..he can gave you things i cant...you make the right choice to leave me...! The rest week is over now for you bear bear...lets trow away our promise....i think you dont need it anymore....but still if you need someone to talk to..text me and call me...im always there..although my tear coming down again....but im happy that you were lovely and happy. Thx you for the love and memories in the past 2 year...i appreciate so much.... what else to say? nothing else...."Remember when" heal my heart pls !

13th - Knock down !

huh, good morning....OMG....fucking headache now !! not feeling well...nothing to say about today....lets go back to yesterday. After morning class. I looked for Denver go for a photo shooting section...he take down all my sadness with his Nikon D500 ! Thx Denver....! yesterday night Halloween student bar night i get knock down....so funny....im last one who stop dancing ..... until someone pull me away....i feel like im more far away from you now....first, delete blog's post.....second, un tag all the picture with me.... third, i dont know wat will happen coming next....lets see !!

check email 2day...got an email from my lecture .YAHOO !! My ICT project 'Swiss Pastry' got a grade A !!



Pick a stone and trow out all the unhappiness and sadness !!


I was wondering what you doing there.....take care.


Bear bear i wish you happy and lovely everyday !!


Haiz...we suppose to walk hand in hand on this beautiful street....now left me alone and the kind sun sending some warm light ...


I wish you can sit beside me under this tree and lying in my side holding hand..talk about our sweet sweet memories.


Argh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! miss you so much!!


Think of food now.....


So nice and lovely if we can take a nap beside this lake side and under the tree...


I be Back ..........

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开
你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你

坚持到底

今天又给梦吓醒了！第十一天了！回想起梦里的东西，也不错啊！自少我在梦里可以看到你，摸到你，听到你讲话。虽然都是离开我的梦。不像现在，跟你分手的那一天。连你的样子都看不到！是多么的苦啊！至少给我一个离开的拥抱吧！太狠了！今晚你去万圣节派对！要玩得开开心心噢！下个星期就要努力了！不要喝太多酒！你不能喝太多的。你会很辛苦，呼吸不到，然后又吐！我已经没有资格要求什么了！只希望你过得好好的，开开心心的，建建康康的，要好好照顾自己。Bear bear,学校今天也有万圣节派对。我也没有扮演什么角色。我穿了你送给我的生日礼物去参加了！



只希望当你不开心的时候想想还有我这好朋友，我永远都会在你身边听你诉苦，讲心事！



OMG!! totally knock out !! omg...cant write anything now...fucking drunk !! good nite !!

Nightmare !!

6.12am
Today is the 11th day you leaved me...the horrible dream still in my mind. Again, i awake by this dream at 6am....everyday....you left me alone and go off with another one.....when the dream reach here.....i awake....then realize it is a dream....but yet it's true...but think in positive way...i can do my dissertation in early morning not bad wad....gonna see my tutor later on...yeah ! The weather is just nice 2day....wish you healthy and happy over there....

10.57am
OMG !! I hate you wong pui san !!! why you delete the all the contents of the your log !!! i haven save it !! i hate you !! i hate you !! u make me cry again !! the only blog you make for me !!! now got nothing !!! argh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW DARE YOU !!! So pain !!!!

9.13pm
wanted to call you and ask y u delete the blog.....but u were not free...you on the way going ling san birthday party. U must be very pretty and charming 2nite....so sad that i cant see it. Enjoy your dinner bear bear ^^ ! You promise me text me when u home....i wait until 9pm....your time alomost 3am le....so i decided to call you....you were sleeping....! May be fren di can "fong fei kei" its ok for fren to do this....sad to know this...a best fren dont even have 1 minute out of 24 hour.....T.T !! haha, i gonna feel what you feel last time....although it was pain and hurt !! i deserve it !! you know wat bear bear....i dont dare to slp late....coz when late night comes....i feel very lonely depressed...i always sleep before all my housemate slp...the only place i can do is write everything into this blog...the only place that i can shout ! the only place that i can put all my sadness ....

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Fei & San Episode 3 : Our first honey moon !

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Our first honey moon trip! Thailand - Phuket island ! First time i went travel outbound with my loved one. The most swt and romantic trip i ever had in my life. Fly from LCCT airport with AirAsia ! A half sponsor trip by KDU as a reward of GREASE performance ^^ ! I still remember the people at the stall selling snack asked us "Are you come from Taiwan?" Haha, both of us watching each other and say do we look like Taiwanese XD !! so SWT !! after few hour of walk down the street...again another people asked "Are you Japanese?" hahaha!! so cute !! I enjoy the most in the little island we have fun. The island name "eggs island (ji dan dao)" the island surrounding by the beach while you stand middle of the island you were surrounding by the sea !! so nice to be there with you T.T !! Both of us drank 2 glass of cocktail called "Mai Thai" the bartender use pineapple as a glass! SWT ! Im wearing the shirt we bought from Phuket..feel so warm...just feel like you hugging me ^^ !


Guess what you doing rite now?? u were concentrate doing ur assignment...im wondering will you still remember of this blog...i wish one day u will see all the bitter sweet memories we had before.. it was deep deep inside my heart !!! that y i love you so so so so much !! i wish i become the chair of urs...so that i can giv you a massage while you doing assignment.... T.T ! alright... break is over...is time to go on my dissertation again !! WONG CHEN FEI !! YOU ARE NOT THE PREVIOUS WONG CHEN FEI ANYMORE !! YEAH !!

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Fei & San Episode 2 : A Day before !

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A Day before you accepted me with a very cute and swt love shape card written "kiss me if you love me". I still remember they day...i beg Nicholas to help me up...i told him come out for dinner then bring you and me....as well as Kelly. I have a awesome dinner with you....i keep wrapping the meat with lettuce and feed you XD. Then i realize i didt really ate much ! the funny things of the night is the tea after the meal. Kelly like it so much ! and she requested another more from the waiter...with the hamster emotion and saying please !! please !! XD.. after that, we dont feel like going home so early....we decided to hang out at KAYU and ate huge roti tisu !! I cant forget this swt moment at all...it's stay in my heart forever and ever...how stupid am i....always put things in heart and nvr share to you loved one....haiz...miss you so much argh !!!!

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Fei & San Episode 1 : GREASE

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當愛情一分為二時。

壹、

當妳愛我比我愛妳還多時。

每天早上總是會接到妳親口叫我起床的電話
妳總是猜透了我會賴床 都會很有耐心的連打好幾通叫我



當妳愛我比我愛妳還多時。

每天晚上MSN時妳總是永遠不說累 都是我說要先睡
好幾次說不累的妳卻總讓我在假裝下線卻偷偷隱藏時發現
妳總在我下線之後也跟著立刻下了線



當妳愛我比我愛妳還多時。

往往一整天下來我總是會收到妳一封又一封噓寒問暖的簡訊
下班了嗎? 累不累? 吃飽了沒? 回家的路上要小心點唷!



當妳愛我比我愛妳還多時。

好像不論什麼時候 身處什麼地方 我們總有聊不完的天
就算我們上一個話題已經結束了 我正苦惱著沒有話說時
妳總會在下一秒又開了個我們都有興趣的新話題



當妳愛我比我愛妳還多時。

每當我不經意輕咳了幾聲 或是忍不住打了幾個噴嚏時
妳總會緊張的問我是不是感冒了 並會催促著說要陪我去看醫生



當妳愛我比我愛妳還多時。

妳會把我的生日當成是妳的生日一樣看待 找來許多朋友一起為我慶生
然後放眼忘去 現場那最大份的禮物一定就會是妳送的



當妳愛我比我愛妳還多時。

雖然都身在台北 但卻還是有段不小的距離的我們
每次有空要見面時幾乎都是妳很勤奮的跑來找我
儘管好多次我都說了我去找妳就行了 但妳卻還是堅持著



當妳愛我比我愛妳還多時。

每次妳去買東西時 總是會不忘多買一份給我
見到我後妳總會開心的跟我說 : 妳看~我也有買妳的喔!
就這樣漸漸的我開始發現我們身上一樣的東西越來越多



當妳愛我比我愛妳還多時。

妳總是會在我沒有主動問妳的情況下
彷彿看穿了我心裡的顧慮般 給了我滿滿的承諾
妳說妳不會輕易的放棄 輕易的離開



就這樣 在妳一次又一次無盡的愛中
漸漸的 我發現我好像能拋開過去感情上遇到的挫折
慢慢的 我對妳的愛好像也一點一滴的增加了
於是乎 我也就毫不保留的跟妳一起跌入這場愛情風暴中了

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貳、

當我愛妳比妳愛我多時。

早上為了能讓妳好好睡覺
所以就跟妳說 我自己爬得起來 妳不用每天都叫我起床
但其實少了妳親口叫起床的聲音 多了冰冷且規律的鬧鈴聲時
往往每天都讓我很不甘願的起床



當我愛妳比妳愛我還多時。

晚上MSN時 漸漸的妳上線都不會找我聊天了
妳說妳也有妳的朋友 也想跟妳自己的朋友聊天
但其實我也沒有要霸佔妳的意思
我只是希望妳下線前也可以跟我說聲晚安或再見而已
好幾次妳都迅速的下了線 什麼都沒說
而我也只能把晚安跟再見當成離線留言傳給妳



當我愛妳比妳愛我還多時。

一整天下來 我的手機總是安靜的毫無聲響
開玩笑的抱怨著問妳說怎麼都沒理我 是不是忘記我了呢
妳卻只是說妳不是天天都很閒可以一直傳簡訊或打電話給我
有時當我有空 主動傳簡訊或打電話給妳時 妳也總是以忙碌帶過 匆匆掛上了電話



當我愛妳比妳愛我還多時。

當我們有時間可以一起坐下來吃個飯 喝杯咖啡聊天時
妳總是邊按著手機 邊有一句沒一句的回答著我的問題
而最後總是會以妳開心的講著電話 我安靜的吃著飯做結尾



當我愛妳比妳愛我還多時。

真的感冒 病的不輕時
為了怕妳或許會擔心 總是很少告訴過妳我的不舒服
反倒是妳要是開始出現了一些輕微的感冒症狀後
就會讓我整個人著急的開始想要請假去照顧妳



當我愛妳比妳愛我還多時。

終於輪到了妳生日時 在電話中對妳透露了晚上幫妳規劃好的慶生派對時
妳卻只跟我說 晚上妳跟別人約好了要幫妳慶生了 叫我等妳回去再說
結果超過了晚上12點 超過了妳生日當天之後
最後只能依依對那些過來要幫妳慶生的朋友一邊道歉又一邊道謝她們所帶來的禮物



當我愛妳比妳愛我還多時。

有時特別想念妳 想見上妳一面時
跟妳說了想過去妳那邊找妳時
妳卻總是說著妳很忙 改天再來
一天 兩天 三天... 然後隔了一兩個禮拜我還是沒能見著妳



當我愛妳比妳愛我還多時。

好幾次跟朋友或家人出去逛街時
在路上看著那些東西時 總是會想著:阿 這個好漂亮 好適合妳!
或是:那個好特別 妳一定會喜歡!
回來後往往會發現買給自己的東西好少 買的幾乎都是要給妳的
只是很多次把那些我認為特別的 適合妳的東西送給妳時
妳都只是看了看後嘴上說著會用 但卻還是把它們都給收進了櫃子裡



當我愛妳比妳愛我還多時。

當我看著妳跟妳說著我很愛妳
並在下一秒問妳是否也跟我一樣時
我卻發現妳始終一句話都沒有回答我
沒有正面回答我的那些問題



就這樣 在我一次又一次的用心維持之中
漸漸的 我發現妳好像逐漸的開始對我冷淡 失去了興趣
慢慢的 妳對我的愛好像竟一點一滴的流失了
於是乎 我也就很緩慢 很緩慢的學著去放開妳的手了

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參、

當我還愛妳 而妳已經不愛我了時。

親愛的 妳過的好嗎?
在妳之後我就很少再遇到讓我刻苦銘心的人了

相簿裡的那個他對妳好嗎?
看著那一張張屬於妳們的甜蜜出遊的合照
從妳打從心裡發出的最真摯的微笑中
我看的出來 他一定對妳很好
我想或許這才是我們最後一次對話時
妳哭著說想要去追求 嚮往中的東西吧!

經過了這麼多個日子
我慢慢覺得我似乎已經漸漸的能釋懷這一切了
只是有時候當我一個人時偶爾還是會很想念妳...



我想念妳

想念妳的MORNING CALL

想念妳在MSN上面的鬥嘴

想念妳噓寒問暖的簡訊跟電話

想念我們肩併肩坐在一起談天的畫面

想念我生病時妳那比我還緊張著急的模樣

想念我生日時妳陪我一起低頭許願然後吹蠟燭的時候

想念那些我們難得見了面的時候 最後要離開了還很依依不捨的樣子

想念逛街時總是在物色著那些東西 哪些適合妳 哪些買來送給妳妳會很開心

想念當妳認真的看著我跟我說著 妳不會輕易的放棄 輕易的離開那種堅定的眼神



我..想念關於妳的 關於我們的一切

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肆、

當愛情一分為二時。



當愛情一分為二時
我的心好像也跟著一分為二了

I need you now

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

Ooo, baby, I need you now

20102010 Bad day i ever had.....

Finally the dooms day for me arrive.
i feel like lost everything is just few second.
We were good and sweet in few week time.
I was planning to get you here and travel.
I was planning to take you as my future.
I was planning to go home.....plan for all the plan that we can do.
Call me plz....the text received.
she told me to light up a cigarette.
Here the pain come !!!


My heart is slide....
extremely pain....
I punch on the wall.
hand was breeding..and i feel nothing.
I get a bottle of Mojito and drink it all.
I decide to went back on my bed and sleep.
Once i close my eyes....bitter sweet memories comes out.
I cry for hour until i get really tire and fall asleep.
I wake up after few hour. tear dropping everyday !