Take it positively or negatively

Birthday 2011 ~

Happy birthday to myself !!

Am i looking forward to celebrate my beloved birthday this year ? answer myself : NO.
Y? I do not wish something lucky happen on me...but i wan all those bad lucks come to an end !
First day of August... accident ...tot things gonna be fine after settle with a guy with P lesson...what i tot is "he not going to log a police report since he was a P and my car is not damaged badly so i just ignore it...advise from friends.." who knows its gone bad !! Letter send to my Ipoh house to inform me please report urself to the police station next week...OMG !! enough for those stories... lets talk about something happy ^^ !

Jobless guy (me) still desperate looking for a job ! since i been set up by the Female employer again (long story, i havent got my payment of part time yet ! ish !). Steven Tan, called me in advanced for an invitation from his boss for a drink. And he mention "Please come if you need a job" the appointment fall on the night when my grandma birthday dinner. Right after the dinner finish...i jump into the car and head toward Bukit Bintang Lot 10.. of coz.. the road is jam and i was thinking "hope i can get a job please ! both of the steven were a really good actor btw.. when they pick me up at the front door of lot 10, both of them were chatting about daily work routine... just ignore me... and i was nervous and thinking about what should i say after meet his boss....8th floor... past through a very beautiful roof garden... step infront of nice ware house called rootz club. When i walk inside the club...the light is deem and i follow steven to the table... i saw a group of youngster standing there...( Why ur boss's friend are so young ! ) Suddenly firecrackers lighted up ~ and shouted HAPPY BIRTHDAY !! Oh gosh !! all my friend from Ipoh and Pinang were here celebrating my birthday !! what a surprise !! i hav not ready for this and i'm stun ~ standing there and keep silence ~ ( why ? why ? y the most touched party happen on me when i was not in a good mood at all !!! ) hence, i dont wanna disappoint all my fren... i enjoy the party ! hav a lot of fun ! Thx pet pet family !! love you guys alot !! The next day afternoon... my dad and mum ask for a conversation... unknown pressure right on my shoulder ... and i cried.. (long story) happy and unhappiness happen rapidly on this few days...haiz....

Right after this complicated week... my birthday was on thursday. With brunch of Netmaster Kaki, ling san and QQ. we went steamboat at sunway, having lots of fun and thx guys !! especially Phang ling san my birthday organizer she really did a very very good job ! Thx fish for the present ~ i like it so much ! After steamboat we have our second round ~ drinking section at pelangi... hav lots of fun with drinking games... XD ! thx Alicia again, ju kenn, natasha, natasha's sister and Pui san !

p/s : Again but i hav to ~ ( to comfort my heart ) Thank you Ling san... you make my day !!
All the bad luck !! chao chao chao !!!

Talking to the moon ~

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know

Cause when the
sun goes down
someone's talking back
Yeah
They're talking back

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night
I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you

In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away

Postpone ~

was busy on graduation and seeking for job these few week... gonna catch up and update soon...busy month ~ !

well....just some word to tell is...
i'm really bad these year.... really really bad luck !!
lots of things not in the right track... out of expected...
lots of things not running smooth ...
i dont even dare to try on my relationship ... stay focus on my job and recharge
be ready for nex year...
the bad things is... i dont not dare to date the girl i like... coz everything bad will happen to me...
stay caution.... spend extra effort on the things im fighting... all i can do in this very unlucky year for me... (i do not believe in feng shui, but things keep on happen on me... wat to do... hav to beware.. Shen ah ! jiu jiu wo ba ! )

2 week relaxing or just being lazy?

roll back few week ago..........
what did i did ?

Well, i went back to KL again.... the purpose of this return is sending out resume and waiting for interview. The bad things is, i nvr had an interview since now.... OMG ! applied almost 50 jobs but yet no reply... or i still hav to wait some more ? but at last, i receive a phone call and we talk about 20 minute .. at de end she say we are not event company ! Well done ! no more phone call in this few days...i gonna try out the company recommend by my sister. no choice ! i'm not waiting anymore ! no income ! XD ! life hav to move on !

i went fishing trip at Putra Jaya with freeman and gangs during wesak day. Before confirm this trip, i nvr knew that it was wesak day. We are killing the fish in Wesak day ! such a huge sin ! XD ! well, i did not kill any ~ i just sit there and enjoying the beauty of the lake.. and look after they rod. In fact, a really awesome trip with all of you total up we went home with 5 fish. had a very cheap and nice dinner at Putra Jaya lake side.

My best buddy pet pet huan disappointed me last weekend.. he went KL with his GF and another couple for leisure. I meet them up afternoon for lunch in Shogun Sunway Pyramid. yet we hav a awesome lunch 2gether, we was talking about wat to do in the following night. And i say lets go club since we long time nvr rock together. I asked them few times and confirm the time and venue. I even called up my friend and booked a table beside the stage. With extra guarantee... i told huan's GF to make sure his is awake and dont be late ! we separate and went bac to our house take shower, pick up Queenie and Janet and we head right away to ZOUK in KL. i expecting all of them were there, but hell no ! i called up huan and nobody pick up as well as his GF. 15 minute later, i call again and he say he just woke up....gonna take shower and change. (i was abit angry coz i already told them more than twice not to be late !) 5 min later i receive another call from him and he told me they are not coming ! WTF ! ( im fucking angry to the MAX ! How can these people hav no kind of responsibilities when they make a promise? ) ended up i hav to call my fren release the table (My fren keep calling me and ask me what time i will be there, and im giving excuses to hold the table until huan is arrive. ended up with FUCK ! ) and 5 of us have no choice to continue having fun coz im not going to pick my fren here and send them back with nothing happen before. lucky Michelle is here, so bad that we hav to share table with them >.< and we had lots of fun in there. First time i went into ZOUK and im lost... Michell told me that there is separate into 3 area.. different are featuring different music... Techno, house and R&B. we hav our crazy move on the dance floor... never tot that lots of guys offer a drink to Michelle, she looked tipsy and i try to be the hero...take my drink and cheers with the guy. Nvr knew how many glasses i drank @@. Ended up everyone is home safe, i was knock out right at the front of the house the last person i drop. XD ! paiseh ! (been a long time i nvr drink since CNY)

wanted to hav second time chicken hot pot but i was fall a sick for 1 week.... flu, cough and sore-throat. so sad that i hav to take care myself without anyone... miss the time ! XD ! two is bettter than one...

the following days was just crazy... my sleeping times was totally upside down... wake up at night and fall asleep at morning... duh ! just cant sleep at night.. coz i hav nothing to do during day times ! Gosh, i really need a job ! i wanna sign offer letter and get confirm ! if not i dont feel like going back ipoh with nothing !

lately, i was sending out many msg and i didt get any reply at all... y people sometimes just nvr reply people's msg... it's really turn me off you know... haiz... is ok ! use to it bah ! may be i'm not important toward them.... anyway it's hurt... especially someone special toward me... thats all ! nitez blog...see you soon in few days.

Mun's Wedding War !

Mun was my sch mate since ..... (forget di XD!) anyway... indeed, I don't really know him. we don't even hang out before and we never ever played 2gether in high sch. just kind of hi and bye friend. One day, yen tung came to me and told me do you remember mun ? and I keep asking which mun u refer to? I totally have no idea at all. but yen tung told me that mun knew who am I... and he invited me to witness his wedding and being part of the brothers crew ! ( look like I'm quiet famous in high sch last time XD ! I break lots of Sam tet's record and even new case ! )

before went to the pre-wedding dinner. steven borrow a porches from his client to bust up our car formation during the princess pick up 2morow morning. we drive to Huan house and show him our car ! funny scene again ! he was sleeping, waked up by his brother... when he saw the car. he was too excited to jump in the driver sit and started to test drive... and he is wearing ONLY underwear !!!!! OMG ! faint ! and I told his mum.. ah Huan going to buy you 1 of this, he is testing the car right now XD !!!!

early in the morning, all the brothers gather at the prince house and started to hang ribbon on the car. my little car was chosen to be the camera and video cam transport ! I play a important role duh ! porches go first and the prince's car second following by lots of brothers car. we begin our journey 9am sharp ! all the way double signal and horn to the princess's house.

here comes the epic part ! all the sisters were waiting for us. they lock the gate. hi fi is ready ! and they wan us to dance nobody ! well, since they put the hi fi very near to the gate. while they fighting.... I walk near to the gate open the hi fi cover and take away the CD ! woohoo ! first round, we win ! wakaka! ( lucky my hand long enough ! XD ) second round, misc mixer and mustard wasabi sushi ! oh gosh ! fucking disgusting ! but no choice ! third round, I been chosen to wear a women bra which the size is 36G ! come with two ribena pack !! all the brothers hav to drink from the bra !! ( they cut a hole infront of the bra and stuck in ribena pack. ) some of the brothers hav to wear girl's underwear with banana on it, and the one not wearing anything hav to drink ribena and eat banana ! XD ! following by usual procedures and we manage to send our princess bac to castle on time ^^ ! ( we figure out that all these idea were came from YouTube ! and we beat up the guy who share it and tag the sister gang ! KNS ! )

wedding dinner ! the scene I never ever forget about ! we were enjoying the dinner and watching the photo slide and some silent video taken this morning ( lucky they didt play the video this movie, the stages things was fully recorded !) suddenly the aunty and uncle same table with us shouted "hey, you were on the screen ! " then I look at the screen and shout " OMG ! they are playing the video ! behind the scene ! I was on the screen with bra and the ribena keep coming out like fountain ! and I shout " I was so so wet ! drink it faster ! " omg the people in the banquet hall is laughing out loud ! everyone is looking at me ! I wish I can find a hole and hide ! >.<

congratulation to this new pair ! may happy and lovely stay with you two forever and ever ! thank you for inviting me ! I'm glad that u can be part of the brothers crew ! the strongest crew ever ! XD

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Happy birthday + Good bye = ?

happy birthday daddy ! my daddy spend almost half a day on the plane back to Malaysia from China. in very simple celebration, went for a very late dinner.

hence, a very big thank to my kakak for being serve our family for the period of 4 years ! much much appreciated ! take really good care when u were home in indonesia ! call bac when needed !

have a safe journey ! blessed !

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Happy Mothers Day ! <3

every have their own celebrating for this very special day ! how's urs ?

in this very special day, I brought flowers which is a bouquet of carnations. after picking up the flowers from ah Bao shop ( one of the florist in Ipoh, get discount always XD ! Bao gor , thx alot and also ur mum ! I really like it ) I went home and planned to put the flower on mum's bed and gave her a surprise ! when I close the auto gate.. the time I pick up the flower from my
car... auto gate open and my mum's is back ! gosh ! I quickly trow the flower back to the car and close the door. ( I donno y I'm so nervous, lucky the flower still in good condition XD ) just not in the right timing ! no choice... after she went bac to the room and make up herself for dinner. me and my brothers knock the door and hand in the flower to my mum and say "happy mother day ! " the first word my mum say is " sozai lai de, y spend money on these flower. " after 5 second she looking at the card and the flower she say " thx a lot ! I like it so so much ! so beautiful ! " then my brother asked "what flower is that?" my mum shout " stupid of coz carnations la! mother day ma!" stupid la my brother ! ish ! XD ! I nvr ever take a picture of my mum. I told my mum take the flower and stand straight ! the funny scene is my mum shy !! don't wanted to look at the camera! and I shout " mummy look at the camera ! I'm taking picture !" so cute my mum ! XD ! we went station one for our dinner, we were planning to go airport for singing and drinking but all of my mum's friend were busy celebrating with their family so plan cancel and went back home. unfortunately, my dad went out station and my 3rd son was in Australia. that's what happening in the pre mother day, the day before mother day.

the next day
we went lunch together and sent my kakak to shopping. Sze mun joining us for lunch and we went to menglembu fo guang for charity carnival. after that all of us went hiking at menglembu. again we wanted to go drinking and singing at airport. my mum asked me to call my fren ah Huan come along. ( I remember last time CNY ah Huan dare my mum to drink.. my mum bring out 2 bottle black label... and ah Huan knock down at my house... XD so don't not dare my mum huh ! my mum so in actually always go k box and drink @@) but those aunties fong fei kei again.. ish ! my mum was well dressed and all of us as well. no choice we cancel again... coz few of us can't finish all the drink worth RM600 (well, if u want a room for singing in airport u need to spend minimum RM600 for F&B)

I wish I could share my happiness to fish cos her mum were far away from her.I can feel how much you love and miss ur mum during the conversation. in here, I wish you and your mother happy mothers day ! may love and wisdom around u and ur mother ! take really good care and keep smiling ! ^^

last word ! happy mothers day to all the mothers ! may all the mums heart fill with loves in this very special day !

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Pasar Malam Bash !

Daddy is on vacation to China... Mummy dont feel like cooking... No home make meals 2day !
Well lets go pasar malam ! called up QQ and Yoon-yee Eun ! First time went pasar malam with you Marcus's sister ! Epic ! Epic ! QQ's mum bring me some pineapple from Thailand ! Thank a lot ! But the pineapple not really nice ! (May be i ate alot nice one XD) What's coming up next?

In front of Yun's house, picking up her and heading to pasar malam
QQ: Hi ! long time no see !
Yun: Hi ! long time no see ! huhuhu ! (weird smile)
(both of them were chit-chating non stop ! talking bout ex-classmate result, where they further study... what college... and some others)
QQ: Would you like to have some pineapple ?
Yun : Nah ~ no thank ! ( Take the box opened it and keep eating -.-" ! in 5 min she finished the whole box !)

she really good in cheating herself huh ! XD !

We ate lots of food .. Mini Pan cake, huge Pan cake (Again !), paper wrap chicken, Laksa come with some other mini fish cake, shark fin soup, fried mushroom and fried tou fu ! Full to the max ! @@ ! i was sharing with Yun how we usually hav crazy time with ur brother last time. And we started to talk about our crazy things we did in de past ! paste medicated oil on people hand while sleeping.. how's happen? what will you do if u were awake ? use ur finger to rub ur eyes right ? then u can imagine what happen next XD ! and the most disgusting is you say put medicated oil on people's ass -.-" ! WTF !
Having lots of fun with you two ~ !

2morow fish is heading to KL to start her new life over there. I believe you were strong enough to being independence ! Enjoy ur college life ! the most happening and wonderful stage of life ! Wish you all the best here ! take care urself ! anything just giv me a call (i know u wont text and rarely replying text) ! Have a safe journey and see you soon in KL !

Song of the day : Right here waiting

Oceans apart, day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
But how can we say forever

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it, baby
You've got me goin' crazy !

Happy birthday San Wong

When times past, everything changes. Every stages we been through,each stage of the relationship as it formed.

First stage "meeting"

Still a student in KDU...one day, my lecturer came into our class and say to me "hey ! we are running a audition and picking up some talented students for our 25th KDU anniversary. We will have a musical name "GREASE" and we need someone who are talented. If you think you are the one ! y not giv a try on it? " First came out in my mind is " Nah, i nvr ever involve myself in this type of things, dont think about it !" The next day, i went to the place where the audition is going and have a look after class. And the people told me that 2morow is the last day of audition, everyone inside the room was singing following by dancing with random song the judge choose. Night before i fall asleep i was thinking "why don't i give a try on it? and i wanna to prove to myself !" The next day, i rush to the place with a guitar on my back, fill up the form and wait for the call. When the judges call my name... i was just so nervous and went into the room start my singing with guitar..well the funny things is...i cant play the guitar but i cant sing ! i can sing but cant play the guitar ! WTH just because im nervous...NVM the judge say "it's ok let's see how u dance !" (the part i nvr ever forget in my life !) the judge play a track which is 60's ! OMG ! i was stunt and telling myself chill ! just remind how the people dance in the movie. I'm pointing my hand up and down following from right to left, left to right. Then i stop, the judges was silent and i ask " can i remove my sock?" What the judges hear is " Can i remove my shirt" And the judge say "No ! y u wan to remove ur shirt ? we dont wanted to see sexy dance ! OMG every one is laughing in the room ! Argh ! i say again "No no no ! is sock !" then the judge say "ok, go a head !" i show the judge what i learned from youtube.. SHUFFLE ! WITH 60's SONG ! (Where shuffle is just popular during the age) all the judges were shock and ask "hey ! that was cool ! where you learned it from?" the judges start standing up and follow my step...All the people was laughing ! XD ! i think because of the epic scene i did in the room left a deep impression in their mind. I was chosen ! be one of the main character in the musical ! haha ! how lucky am i ! We started our practice for 6 month and i meet her in the practices. She's one of the partner of me during the musical.

Second stage "the chase"

I started chasing her after the musical performance is end. its was just sweet when the time i propose to her.. she nvr accepted me at the first, after few week later, i went to her house for a steamboot party...after the party i stay back for cleaning and she gave me a letter asked me to open it. i turn around and i open the letter. a heart shape hard paper inside wrote "I changed my mind, would you like to be my boy friend? I promise, i'll love you as much as you love me ! if the answer is yes. Please kiss me now !" When i turn around, she standing in front of me and smile and i gave her a kiss on the face and we hug each other tigh ! With this simple card is how we started our relationship !

Third stage "honey moon"

All the crew in the musical is awarded with a trip to Phuket island in Thailand. So glad that we can have our honey moon trip in outstation and it's is free ! we really have a lots of fun ! walking down the street with the same t-shirt we brought. Snorkeling, chill out at the bar, taking pictures here and there, trying out every hawker stall at the roadside. And the most funny things is, we been asked "Are you Japanese?" and "Are you Taiwanese" by the locals. (do we looked like?)

Fourth stage "Comfortable"

Long story, so skipped XD !

Firth stage "tolerance"

Long story also, skipped XD !

Sixth stage "down hill"

Long story duh, skipped XD !

Seven stage "breaking up"

Long story OMG ! skipped XD !

Last stage "totally stranger"

It's been 6 month since we break up, i still remember what you told me when you wanted to break up "I wish you can be my best friend forever" but yet not. We were falling back to a stranger level. you cant call me at all.. facebook unfriend.. ever text.. all because your boy friend don't like. i wish i could call you and say Happy birthday ! 2day... but yet i didt coz i may cause both of you into a argue at the end. In the very last word, thx for being with me the past few years. I learned a lot from you, u tot me how to love a person and spend quality times 2gether. Wish you all the best ! take care and beloved birthday !

相遇最美

我与她的的第一次相遇是在面子书里。有一天，很平常的浏览面子书看看朋友和亲人的点点滴滴。在看妹妹的生活照时，无意中看到了一位女生。第一个感觉就是，她给我不同的感觉。不像其他女孩，心想原来我妹妹有个很特别的女性朋友，如果我认识她多好。过后也没有再想了，继续做我的功课。这样的这个女生就留了深刻的印象在我脑海里。

毕业了，回国了。开始工作了！她已深深地存到我脑的深处，直到我们第二次相遇。其实我也不想做这个工程的，因为身体状况出现问题了。可是答应了妹妹，没有办法！就最后吧！因为工作的关系，我需要聘请两位临时员工。在问东问西的情况下还是找不到，认识的朋友都没空，其他的都因为太远了都拒绝我，还有的因为工钱低。在没办法之下，我想到了我可爱的妹妹! 她人在怡保而且刚中学毕业因该有空。我就拿起我的电话拨了给她。她答应了，顺便拜托她帮我寻找另外一个临工。盖电话后，我继续我的工作一直到当天。妹妹告诉我她已找到了，而我也没有过问是谁，是她的朋友就可以了。工作当天我去载了妹妹过后就去载她了。妹妹也在车里告诉我，我的朋友是美女叻！我也没多说，只是讲了一句“真的吗？”脑里都在想工作的事情。载了她也没看清楚，心里想“先安顿自己的肚子吧！很饿叻！” 找了间餐厅，点了菜，坐了下来才有时间看了一下。心想“这女孩蛮漂亮而且看起来很成熟，为什么我妹妹跟她很大差别叻！”也没想浆多，吃饱了就开始我们的旅程。到了工作的第二天，因为工作太闷而又没有什么顾客对我们的游戏有兴趣，我们就坐在台前开始按起电话了。用我的手机开了她的面子书一看，在其中一张以前照片中看到了她！过后我就问我妹妹这个女孩就是她吗？接着我妹妹问我“干吗？”我就告诉我妹妹我与她第一次相遇的感觉。妹妹还讲你们真有缘，哈哈！过后的日子我都特别留意她，与她谈天想多一步了解她。与她接触了数天，发觉她很开朗，思想也偏向积极的方面，单纯的她让我们的谈话很舒服。很多时候她都很善忘，当我提醒她时她就傻笑！每当人看到他人的弱点时都不喜欢，可是我倒觉得她很可爱！她很有自己的想法，每当谈起认真的事情事，她都表露成熟的一面。说笑时就傻笑！很多时候我都忘了自己在工作都跟她们说笑晚在一起。平常的我都会交代临工后回酒店做报告和休息到晚上才回去一趟。很自然的，我都很想回去看看她聊聊天傻傻笑！当然也担心妹妹她有没有喝水吃饱会不会闷。这七天我都过得很开心，老板的烦恼都忘了就好像度假。每一天完工了就到处去吃喝玩乐，第五天我将我的感觉告诉了妹妹问她“我是不是喜欢上她了？看到她开心，心里自然很开心。晚上也很自然的等她睡了还不睡担心你们踢被会冷到，一直到累了才睡去（因为第一天我工作到很晚回来时你们都睡了，冷气在开可是她们的被盖的歪来歪去，都不懂是妹妹还是她踢的，不管啦！盖好就是别冷到！）。心里想 “没可能吧！才认识人几天！” 可是我的心不会骗我吧！我喜欢上她了！这个问题我也告诉了我的好朋友Sze mun她只跟我讲了一句“ 喜欢就去吧！要珍惜缘份，眼前人！很难的遇到自己喜欢的女孩！” 就这样过了六天。第六天很想跟她表示我的心意就傻傻的匆匆忙忙的吵Sze mun帮我选了条手链可是不懂她喜欢什么样的。想起那天经过一间店，她对里面的米奇老鼠大喊！刚巧又看上了这斯文的手链就买了下来。店员告诉我每一片米奇老鼠的图案可以刻上名字，刚巧有五片就写上她的英文名吧！可是到头来还是写错了！都是妹妹不接我电话！哈哈！当妹妹告诉我时，心情真的崩溃了。妹妹还讲“我问她了，他不喜欢之前的所以换了！傻掉！买了才想到，这样子会吓坏她吗？我又不敢当面送给她，又怕吓坏她。只好放在她的电脑里让她慢慢发觉吧！我真笨！当时心想今日不懂明日事，想做什么就做吧！我想因为最近看到太多天灾和车祸吧！心里都寒了！其中的一天我们俩在游戏场玩得很开心！现在想起我会在那傻笑！哈哈！很快的最后一天，晚上老板没有上来。很明显老板又要我加班可是没有工钱！我不要再做免费工作了，反正就最后一个工程了。妹妹的爸爸来接她，本来她是跟妹妹的车回到怡保去可是我想到如果我载她会就有理由不加班啦！我是不是有点小聪明！哈哈！她也很乐意的随我的车。其实，其一我不想加班。其二，我想跟她聊天多点了解她！在车上有机会吗！交代完员工后，我们送走了妹妹和她家人。回之前，她忽然想喝咖啡，我们就走进startbuck买了两杯新推出的咖啡！她跟我讲怕我晚上驾车不行。（我真的那么差吗？可能晚上很危险要保持清醒！）在回的路上我们都一直谈天一直到她家为止。因为她告诉我她很怕！所以我只驾80km/h我还是第一次在高速公路驾酱慢！可是心里在想，如果这路没有终点多好！没可能吧！回到现实了！放了她看着她进屋了有点舍不得离开。按了封信息给妹妹，告诉她“我已安全送她回到家了！很舍不得这个星期啊！快乐的时光过得特别快！” 从她跟她阿姨谈天中，发觉她很自立。很多东西都一个人去面对，她的家庭导致她成为了坚强的女孩。心想“人也会有累的一天，多希望当你累了，我能在你身边给于支持！鼓励！”

我们第三次的相遇是隔天的事，我们的“收工走！"哈哈！ 在De garden的任吃steamboot ! 开开心心的又可以看到她。今天得知她喜欢吃tutti fruity！又了解她多一些啦！今天下午傻傻的，又冲动跑去买花，跟安迪讲我要普普通通的。可是安迪就越包越大！心想这次又惹祸了。肯定吓坏她了！同样的想法又来了今日不懂明日事，想做什么就做吧！为了避免吓坏她！我酱杀伤力减到最低。在送她回家时让她打开车尾，也是个惊喜吧！每一次到最重要的时刻我都会紧张到说不出话。真丢面！（我追女孩子真的那么差吗？妹妹也赞成！伤心）只能静静的看着她把花拿了进去跟她摇手道别！还好她有回礼叻！巧克力！这盒简简单单的巧克力足以让我开心整个晚上！是不是很傻？哈哈！

写到累了，写了三个小时了。很久没有些华语了，还是第一次写酱长的华语日记！看回傻眼！
发觉自己的文才好多了！是看书看太多了吗？以前考华语很差叻！

Moved on ~ ^^

WONG CHEN FEI ! is time to wake up huh ! all people around you were worry about you and you still remain silent and not saying a word ? stand up
and appreciate to those who pick up a concern on you ! 1 night is enough for you to emo ! be a man !

thx you daddy for scolding me ! i was so happy that finally u have a word to me ! at least u nvr ignore me ! sorry to being so irresponsible...
coz i just do not wanted u all to worry me... seriously i dont wanted u all to worry me badly ! i wan u all to be happy ! so sad that once i told
u all about my jobs.. u all started to worry.. is ok.. its a process of my life ! i have to face it and overcome it ! dont be so worry about !
i know who am i ! i can handle it ! by right... i don wan u all to share my unhapiness anymore ! but i will wrote it on this little blog ! in case you
all over worry on me... and its will convert into stress on me...

Daddy i hope u will understand my condition... i like social.. hanging around with fren... of coz i love my family ! i like this job ! i know u were worry
about me since im the first in this family who went out to KL and working in the city of sin ! XD ! but still i hav to go through the process of life. u cant
just protect me the whole life right ? i love you daddy !

Emotionally reached bottom line..

I'm sorry Daddy and Mummy. i know all of you were worries about me... i knew it ! i understand ! but im 24 year old di ! i can settle it by myself ! i haven get paid my salary yet ! yes ! indeed i do called up my boss and ask for it... but they keep delaying.. what can i do ? by telling u all the true coz u were my family ! and i dont wanna hide and lie to you all ! but in return i get more stress and tension... i cried 2day.. emotionally reach bottom line.. cant even think ! even in positive ways... i need some times ! I'm sorry Popo... i dont feel like going to Kota kemuning coz i haven get my salary and i dont wanted to answer all the question u all asked... i dont wan u all to worry ! i just wanna use my first salary to hav a wonderful dinner with u all ! forgive me..Came bac from friend's house..went home and the first word i hear from you is... " is this your home?" it really hurting me a lot !! u nvr even talk single word to me during the whole dinner ! Wong chen fei ! wake up ! nothing is impossible right ? i knew u can do it ! Again, im really really sorry daddy ! pls do not ignore me ... its really hurt me badly ! in this moment i just wanted to be alone.....a fully silent night...

I LOVE YOU DADDY AND MUMMY ! IM SORRY !

Hell Kichten !

It's Saturday !
What will you do in Saturday ?
Wake up late at 12.00 noon XD
fetch my little brother back from school and heading for lunch with Dadi and brother.
Y am i so concern about my little brother eating style...

1. he was just fast !
2. Food still chewing in the mouth, still wanna put some more.
3. Never ever use public cutlery to pick up dish !

Been toughing him many times di...still ! ISH !

Heading back to home and pack my cloth and went sister house. She text me "When u come ? I'm freaking hungry !" XD ! sorry ba sister... i hav to company my dadi eat lunch !

Have a lot fun in QQ house... she baking crunchy cheese cake and her's mum makes spaghetti with mushroom, onion and pork minced sauce, yam desert And red bean desert! its was so damn nice ! I had passion fruit drink from her mum ^^ yummy !

Chef of the day in Hell Kitchen !
(Look ! she did use her hand in the process of making)

While in the process of making, i keep making fun of QQ XD ! She use his hand all the way in the process of it... Mixing..tasting..cleaning..watever la... I standing beside and keep shouting " use hands again ! " and she keep replying me " i take shower di ! im so clean ok ! " Wakaka ! all rite, after the epic and fun scene happen finally the Pre cheese cake is slot in the oven and ready to baked ^^ !

Deng ! Deng ! Deng !
It's shouldn't looked like this...
The way she cut it.... just FAIL !
QQ accidentally cut it into pieces before letting me snap on it !
And she told me "oh yea hor..forget to take picture ! arh ! how stupid am i " =.="
But it taste nice just the cheese tasteless.... was wondering is it expired ? XD

Red bean desert

Yam Desert !

It's was so freaking nice with chili sauce !

Spaghetti With mushroom, onion and pork minced sauce !
sauce prepare by QQ's mum
Spaghetti prepare by QQ XD !
( How to check if the spaghetti is well cooked? pick a little of it and trow it toward the wal. If the spaghetti stick on the means well cooked ! XD By KDU chef lecture)
Second method - try it with ur mouth ! (dont beat me up...QQ did this)

Take a shower and dress up myself and went PGS hall for the concert "Beyond the music" performed by St. Micheal high school band ! It was boring, me and yen tung decide to went dinner. I suggested hawker stall "Tong Shui Gai" but since we dress up real nice, we decide to went somewhere nice and not hawker stall. So we went MP. Went back to PGS pick up YT's sister and brother to supper. Still we ended up in "Tong Shui Gai" =.="

p/s : Fish Nye, we did count you in in this awesome day but you not able to come. It's ok, we still young right ? forever 18 ! still got lots of times to go. We will hav another Day of awesome coming soon. Have fun in KL and (around Melaka) XD ! Happy birthday to your beloved daddy ! and dont forget to have your medicine ! >++p>

Chef of the day !

Chef of the day ! This hidden chef in my house give me a shock ! who was that ? My beloved maid ! kakak saya ! What she did to my dinner? hehehe ! OMG ! she cooked chicken rice ! and its taste very nice ! i was wondering where she learn it from. My mum never cook chicken rice before in the house. Erm.. since my mum is outstation, she take care of out dinner the whole weeks. And she try very hard to satisfies our appetite, especially my dad. She did very good job and finally impress me as well ! oh gosh ! thank kakak for the wonderful dinner, its really taste good ! The most epic scene is when i told this story to my sister QQ, she was shock as well and return me with a statement "i feel like eating chicken rice now" Wakaka ! Funny rite ? Hiking again with pet pet huan 2day, sad that i cant challenge the longest track 2day due to the lack of times. But yet, i able to sweat alot too ! Great day with pet pet huan, we chit chat all the way walking down the hill and we were discussing why we would hang out in the mamak and hawker stall with friends? we can actually choose some healthy way of it. For example, hiking; we still able to chat and we do it in healthy way ! Our luck went good 2day, we meet 2 pretties heading uphill when we heading downhill. We stop at the fruit stall and continue our conversation. Suddenly, the pretties went back and have their fruit here as well XD ! we keep on making fun about the pretties. went pasar malam 2day with Yen Tung and Steven Khong. Yen tung bought some DVD and we head back to Yen tung house. She decided to watch horror movie and ask me to stay until the movie finish..oh gosh.. still she scared about ghost.. its a Hong kong comedy horror movie..WTF ! i just burned another CD for my car, enjoying the latest hits in the car. The feeling is just nice with my audio system in my car. I LOVE YOU AGU 2028 ! Nvr ever let you get hurt again ! MUACK !

Another lazy day ?

waked up by my brother early morning... say "wake up ! fetch me to bus station !" i still remember i say "Yes, then i cover my self with blanket and slp again" HAHA ! at the end my father send him to the station and went breakfast with my little brother. Hell yea, 2day we (Father, little brother and i) went hiking again. Challenging the longest track 49 again. This time i stuck my ear with earphone, listen to the pop song and went to the top of the the track non-stop ! Well, today im the first one who reach the peak ! stop smoking does helps ! no more difficulty on breathing. 2nd times taste my main cuisine, erm.... she really learn everything from my mum dude.. even soup ! ABC soup ! but not good as my mum's ! haha ! Have 2 round snooker with little Bao ( 1 lose, 1 win ) Pick up my brother's friend and his wife XD ! went to tong shui gai supper ~ ! ( i meet kim sze and his wife du) i realize i didt bring my wallet ! omg.. get a free meal ! yeah ! was msg QQ the whole day.. she is so so so ........ donno wat to say just i like being fun with you ! haha !

Rainy Day

Well, planned for sport 2day ! A shower of rain spoil my mood..
Hiking cancel - the track is wet...very slippy
Cycling half way cancel - rain heavily half way WTF !

Went back to my house, finished up some pumping .. looking at the sit-up machine but not feel like doing it coz my abs muscle is on extremely pain ! ever cough ! The bad news is i cough the whole day..... the amount of pain i had 2day is really KNS. Not going out for dinner 2day, first time trying my house maid cuisine. Not bad wad, My mother is a real CHEF ! everything my maid cook is learned from my mother ! oh gosh ! but still my mother cuisine is the best ! Mummy having fun in china ya ! dont forget bring bac souvenir for me ^^ !

Happy Family days - SUNDAY !

Sunday is a very special days for my dad and every member in my house. This sunday, my mum went off to china -.- cheh ! left all the male here. We went hiking as usual, but 2day we challenge the longest track of the hill ! 49 ! woohoo ! im the last who reach the top..... god damn it ! First thing i gonna do while im on the way reaching the top. STOP SMOKING ! I'm serious coz my heart beating is so damn unbelievable fast !
1. For my own good
2. For my friend always around me
3. For the one i loved

I have a wonderful dinner at MP with my family and my elder brother future wife ^^ ! while on the way to MP, my father giving me a lesson how to maintain relationship again ! Oh my Father ! my best teacher... XD ! Wish everyone have a great sunday and be ready for monday ! sad right... XD ! Good nitez !

Was worries about you once i hear that u were sick. Get a doctor immediately
Hope you are free from suffer and get well very very very soon !

Yayasan charity dinner !

First at all ! thx Yen tung for the invitation for the dinner ! It's really meaningful for me. Hence, i figure out something that people just donate money but they didt really care where's the money go and where's the money spend on.. i was chatting with the women who standing in front of a board full of photos and details bringing out the message how they going to train and teach those who are disable. The problems is no one is looking at the board and just me and the women all the times. Sad ! We were talking about the joy and feedback of the disables once they finish training and get bac to life. Its was touching and awesome ! they pay 2 times harder than us just to do some simple jobs. how amazing there are ! Never give up !

Sincerely wish all who's disable live in happiness and joy ! I'm the one who get inspiration from you all and a very thank you !

A bit disappointing the one inviting cant attend this dinner with me
but i know that she is in depressed mood and lots of matter flying around her.
Here i wish her can overcome all of it and stay happy everyday ! take care ! best wish for you here !

16/4/2011 - Celebrating myself free of love

16/4/2011 our 3th anniversary if we still holding hands. But not, we just close to each other but yet we no longer have any heart feeling any more. In this very memorable day, i wish you all the best in your study, relationship and stay healthy ! Thank you for telling me the truth. Without you cruel words and action, i wont able to find my self now days. Thank you for being with me the past 2 and the half year. It's really wonderful and happy all the times. I appreciated so much ! i learned alot from you, i knew what's "quality times" for girls. Its not just being 2gether with her everyday but did something special.

Complaints of Dad

Heading back to Ipoh 2day. Wao, i reach ipoh at 6pm (i used 2 hour from KL to ipoh @@) just to have dinner with my mum before she went off 1 week. She went China with her sister and friend for leisure. So good to saw my mother having fun with her sister, its been a long time my mum nvr hav a reunion with her sister since she married to my father XD ! You know wat ! My father is telling my mum infront of me " i'm not used to it when u r not in the house when i bac from work, no one talk to me i hav no one to talk to" My mum ( looking and pointing at me) " that's y i told ah fei come bac to ipoh accompany you " OMG my mum and dad was so cute !! And my mum put her hand on my head and say "fai ah, this week guai guai ya.. dont went out and come bac in the morning, once i come you are free ! " i cant stand anymore and i laugh out loud in the car ! I was so happy to saw this scene ! the BEST scene ever ! Dont worry mummy ! i will fetch little brother to sch on time and take him bac safely ! Go ahead and enjoy ! i will talk to daddy most of the time !

Love you mum and dad !

Another Stage of life

Times pasted rapidly ~ review back what i have gone through 2010. WAO ! alots ! cant even write all of it into the blog. So i just skip it XD ! Btw, its been a long time i never touch my blog after the incidence. Is time for me to move on, no more lazy excuses for me. I have screwed up my first job? may be not. Healthy come first ! i think i have to updated my blog every coming days. too good to be true, i cant really write it all down... too much ! i think if i do, it will be another dissertation @@ ! Family and Friends ! Sorry to say that i did not updated u all about myself. Wish you all have a great day and good nitez !

我们做回朋友吧,永远在一起。

我们做回朋友吧,永远在一起。

你说：“我们做回朋友吧”
那么,请问:我可不可以继续和你分享我的快乐?
我可不可以借你的肩膀流泪?我还可以每天和你通电话吗?
我想见你的时候,是不是不需要任何的借口?我寂寞的时候,你还会陪我散步吗?
我穿得漂漂亮亮去见你的时候?你会称赞我吗?我想搂着你的时候,你会拥抱我吗?
我可以知道你跟谁来往吗?他是什么人？你有多喜欢他?
我可不可分担你的烦恼?我可不可以帮你做事?我可不可以向你撒娇?
如果,今天我很想的话,我可以睡在你旁边吗?
你生日的那天,可以跟我一起过吗?
我们是不是永不说再见。

我要跟你做这种朋友。
如果不可以的话，我们便不要做朋友好了。
不纠缠不证明我不爱。只是不纠缠，是我能够为我们曾经的爱，
能为你做的最后一件事一段以为会天长地久的爱情走到了落幕的时候。
一个以为会执他之手，与他偕老的爱人走到了分手的时候。
我们该如何面对。
该如何给这段感情一个交代，该如何给爱过的，也正爱着的那个人一个结局？

解决无非是两种
纠缠与不纠缠
是的，我理解，我清楚，我明白
眼睁睁的看着全心全意付出的感情
那个爱着的人离开
是多么残忍，是多么绝望的事
可是残忍和绝望不是纠缠对方的理由
是的，我理解
纠缠是想挽回对方的心
留住对方的情
希望重新开始
将感情继续下去，
给彼此一个新的机会~
给爱一个机会去厮守~

可是，分手的时候，越是纠缠不休，越会让自己伤的更加体无完肤。
伤害的不止是自己的心和身。
还会让对方，面对你的纠缠说出更绝情的话，甚至做出更绝情的事。
纠缠也践踏了自己的尊严。
你越是不死心,不放弃,越是挽留,越是纠缠,
只会让对方看轻你,让她走的更快,更远。
这样就把自己从绝望推入了万劫不复的地狱。
如果她真的要分手,那就让她走吧,干净利落的走,笑着让他走。
即使心里已经哭成了海,也不要去纠缠,挽留。
大方的让她走。
也许,某天,她还会想起你,还会想起你们的旧情,记起你的好。

我深信,她应该很了解我对她的感情,能够体会出,我对她付出的是真心
既然,她不肯留下,那我何必纠缠,那就放她走,给她自由。
可是,我不纠缠不等于我不想她,不等于,我没有爱过她。
我思念她的心,依然折磨我在日日夜夜。
往往别人不经意的一句话,就能让我想起她。
走在寒冷的街上,再也没有她温暖的手握住我冰冷的手。
那些孤寂的夜里,再也不会有她温暖的拥抱温暖我。

每个失眠的夜,再也没有她的句句关心,字字问候。
甚至电话也一声不响,陪着我沉默。曾经为了她一个电话而欢喜不已。
她不在,时间却不会停止不前
如果时间可以停止,我希望时间停在我们最相爱的那段日子
她不在,我的生活还要继续,一如已往,心底的伤, 欲盖弥彰,
自己的伤,自己解决,自己的心情,自己整理,自己的疼痛,自己埋葬
但, 不会找她
我能做的就是咬着牙自己对自己说,坚持下去。
卷缩在角落,等待着伤口平复，
我们都是凡尘男女,挣不出纠缠的情网,逃不过爱与被爱的旋涡
心碎神伤后,是漫无止境的寂寞
幸福的感觉也许只能刹那,刹那过后,是一个人的落寞
上帝让我在错误的时间遇上了你
我,哭了
它让我在正确的时间离开了你
你，会哭吗？

好想你能知道,不纠缠,不证明我不爱你,不纠缠,不证明我不想你,不纠缠,不证明我没伤
只是不纠缠,是我能够为我们曾经的爱,
能为你做的最后一件事。